Pep Talks With My Big Heart
“In those days I used to talk to myself as if reciting poetry.”― Haruki Murakami
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“Positive self-talk is to emotional pain as pain pill is to physical pain.” — Edmond Mbiaka
I often talk to myself, and it has helped me a lot in healing myself. Self-talk is something that we all must do irrespective of what someone else thinks about us.
Last year, one of my friends who lives in a different city told me that he is afraid of his daughter because she has started talking to herself. The first response I gave to him was ‘I wish I knew this at her age’. His daughter is four years old.
My self-talk started in 2017 when I was on my own, and that made me realize how positive, affirmative and courageous I was becoming from the inside. Even my overthinking thoughts were all about God, nature, and the universe.
I kind of think negative living with parents under the same roof. Our floors are different, but then those vibes are here. Vibes that I am unable to accept wholeheartedly.
What do I truly talk about with myself?
Whenever I visit a Gurudwara (Sikh Temple), I bow my head and ask God never to make me full of pride and greed. Cracking my luck somewhere and earning money won’t be too far a dream, but then I never want to boast about these things. I always want to remain humble, grounded, and surrounded by real-life heroes.
I often talk about how the world has turned from corrupted to greedy clowns and how genuinely I don’t want to be a part of it. It doesn’t hurt me to think about death because sometimes I wonder what kind of world, I am truly being a part of.
The other day I was watching the news, and this guy killed his friend because he didn’t lend him his favorite jacket to impress his girlfriend. Was it big enough a reason to kill someone in the name of friendship? This news disturbed me a lot, and I was looking upwards asking God ‘You got me corona, but you didn’t take me away. Not a good deal’.
Whenever I get too depressed and anxious, I talk to myself about this won’t last. Everything is temporary here so are your emotions. That truly gets me back in a sane mood. It doesn’t work all the time but most of the time it does.
I don’t complain to the universe for my existence but deep within my heart, I feel I don’t belong here. I get affected easily, and I am not like others. It doesn’t leave my mind for weeks, months, and sometimes years. I don’t regret being a highly sensitive human, but as an HSP it becomes double tough to face the world in the right stride.
I hope people don’t judge those who talk to themselves. They aren’t loners. They aren’t seeking sympathy rather they are living their truth, and the day you would practice what they are doing, you wouldn’t be mocking their ideas of living an authentic life.
Thank you for reading my words.
“Watch what you tell yourself, you’re likely to believe it.” — Russ Kyle
Gurpreet Dhariwal is the author of four books. Her books are available on Amazon, Flipkart, and BlueRose. Connect with Gurpreet at www.gurpreetdhariwal.com. To book one on one session: gurpreetdhariwal.com/online-appointments